einca

when will you reply to my email?

einca

i've been running a small business at work lately, just to help a bit with my finances. I'm not really earning a lot on this, this just to save on my fare, and for my lunch.

Unfortunately, there are just people who can't respect that, and have the guts to steal from me. I'm only getting P5 for every lunch pack i sell, and i end up paying P35 because some Heartless punk decided that they'd want free lunch today. Watdapak!

To hell with you!!

arrghh!! It might be just a small amount, but to me it's already something. I have plans for every P5 I earn.

arrgghhh!! i hope sumakit tiyan mo..whoever you are!!

einca

Yeap. It's been a week. And i think I'm gonna be okay.

I haven't had that wanting to always have you around. And I hope I'd get to the point where I'd be okay without you completely in my life. Looking forward to that day.

My efforts had not been put into waste. I manage to not reply to your message. I didn't go melodramatic, and started justifying you're moronic actions to myself.

weee...

Plus, I had a great New YEar!

Spent it with my friends, and friends of friends. We had a great laugh.

I haven't really gone to the church lately. I plan to go tommorow with my gang (me, yaya ang baby). hehehe

I pray for strength to get me through all the rainy days. I pray for a stronger and for a heart that appreciates.

einca

i just bought "by the river piedra i sat down and wept"  for P150. Im so happy.

i know i shouldn't be buying this, but where else could you buy a paolo coelho book for this amount.

i'll be buying some more 2nd hand books from her next pay. weee!

einca

I only have these words for you!

Pakyunimu!

Bwahahahah (evil laugh)

It’s new year and I’m Happy! Seriously, I am.

Though there were some minor setbacks like me not getting a cab thus being late from work, everything is okay!

There are so many things that I have to thank God, so many blessings that require more appreciation from me.

This year, I plan to be as focused as possible and to always be the best who of I am. I know I have untapped potentials (confidence level men!!), and I’ll use it to take me to great heights. J

einca

I was in an emotional rampage yesterday. The culprit: My Fucking Pay.

I was aghast when I got my pay. Imagine the hulk turning green; that was me yesterday.

And because of that I broke my promise to myself, and left him a message on his YM.

Darn! But that’s okay, because I feel BETTER today.

I’m still short with my budget, but I know I’ll be okay. God won’t take me for granted.

It’s full moon, and the sky is promising a brighter night for me.

I bought a new organizer. I hope to be more organized for the year 2010.

I want to focus on the things that really matter in my life this year.

I’m looking forward on a better me, and a better year.

p.s. i haven't thought of him that much today. and i feel good about it.

einca

Sniff sniff, achuu!!

I’ve got colds, and I think it’ll worsen. I’m planning to go to the office clinic later which is 3 floors down to get myself some meds. I’ll probably drop by SM to buy vitamins. I cannot be sick for three reasons. First, I’ll look so ugly. I’m not saying that I’m pretty or anything, but I’ll look worst than I look now. I was in the elevator with one of the pretty girls in our team, I look like a hag compared to her. My eyes were droopy, skin so pale, and my hair is everywhere (that’s even with ponytail). Second, I cannot work properly with my voice sounding like daisy duck. My customer and I will end up irritating each other since they cannot understand me, and I upset about them not understanding me. And Lastly, I cannot be sick because that’ll make me more depressed. I won’t get enough sleep, which would make me crankier, and more time to think about him.

Plus, I won’t play the part of a sick girlfriend who has a boyfriend who does not even care about leaving her a message. No. I’m done playing patient girlfriend, who’s always there to understand.

I had an "attack" earlier. I won’t mention what it’s about because it’ll only remind me about how angry I was. But it was one of the things that made me realize that he may not care that much about me. It may hurt, but I’ve got to accept that reality, and show him that I can do the same thing.

I’m not going to be push around, and be taken for granted. I didn’t go online today, which is very helpful I guess.

I’ve got a number of things planned out in my head the whole day today, so I’ll probably be very busy and will be awfully tired when I get home; which would also mean I won’t have time to go online. I plan to send him an sms on new year’s eve, but that’s about it. No other plans to get in touch with him.

I hope he’d blink first. I want the relationship to work, and I want both of us to be happy. I’m praying for that.

On the another note, remember the guy I posted about previously, we had a conversation earlier. It was really a conversation. It was just me asking if I can look at the duffle bag that our company is giving out for Christmas. He gave me the bag, he said that it’s the only color available for now, and I’d have to wait for a couple more days if I want a different color. I replied "oh shoot!", and he gave me the bag, I checked the pockets and the make then returned it to him, I said thank you, he replied you’re welcome. And that’s about it.

Somehow, these little nothings take off my mind off my problems.

Thanks guitar guy. J